Today, due to very random and unforeseen circumstances, I had a lovely chat with a guy that I haven't seen for a VERY long time. For confidentiality, we'll call him Bill. Bill just got back from his mission a week ago. We knew each other all the way back in elementary, which is the way I remember him, so it was a little shocking to see all 21 years of him sitting at my kitchen table. He asked me what I've been up to since high school, and I was shocked to find that I had a lot to say! We started talking about how grown up we are, and I suddenly feel like the future is very very close.
When I was little, missionaries were the bees knees. They knew everything and could do anything... they were adults! Likewise, I felt that marriage and dating and children and a career and a house and paying bills and all that "stuff" was very far away. "That's adult stuff, I'll never make it there." I thought.
Well. I was wrong.
The little kid that thought those things (hello alliteration!) is sitting right here. Right in my skin! She's just under a bunch of other versions of myself. Kinda like the rings of a tree. Huh.
That's a good thought, but it's not the point of this post, so let's get back to it.
Here's my immediate "2012-2013 School Year" future:
1. RA for SUU Housing
2. NSLS President stuff
3. Time with my boyfriend as often and as much as possible :-)
#4 is the one that is bothering me the most. HOLY COW! I'm graduating from college in the Spring! What happens after that? Work? Marriage? Both? Where? When? What? Huh?!
I'm the kinda girl that just wants to know everything. If I knew what was coming, then I could plan accordingly and I wouldn't worry about the details. When I see the big picture, then I take in the details as they come. My problem right now is that I don't even have the big picture!! It's like graduation is just a cliff I'm going to be climbing very soon- I've got my ropes and harness all set up- but I don't know what will await me when I get to the top. Will it be grand, breathtaking vistas? Will it be a secret paradise made just for me? Or will it be just more cliffs to climb?
Unfortunately, I won't know the answer until I get there. This would be a good time to learn that tricky art of patience. Sigh... one day I will become a patient person... maybe.
'Til then, I'll keep blogging and living 1 day at a time. I guess. It's not like I have any other options.
Thanks for reading!