And not in an abstract "everyone is going to die eventually" way.
I'm going to die relatively soon.
I have 9 weeks until I enter the MTC and it's KILLING ME. I want to be on my mission already! Working for Seven Peaks was an adventure and a blessing in that it filled my time and gave me a source of income for a while, but it's been a REALLY long first week of unemployment.
You know how I find adventure in the ordinary and mystery in the mundane? This week has stretched my creativity to the limits. I have had adventures (of course), but every day feels like a lifetime- and NOT in a good way. I keep thinking that there must be a reason for the long wait between receiving my call (July 3rd) and actually entering the mission field (November 20th), but I haven't figured it out yet.
I know that part of it is probably the tricky business of getting a visa or that my mission isn't ready to accommodate new missionaries or that there isn't room for me in the MTC at this moment (wild theories), but I can't help thinking that there's something I need to learn before I go. Something that will help me immensely in the mission field. The only thing that comes to mind is that I have to learn patience... but it seems like that is always the answer. God is always trying to teach me to be more patient and I hate it. I don't have time to learn patience, I've got things to do! Can it really be another lesson in patience? Even if it's not, I'm stuck here for 9 more weeks. I don't have another choice.
Since I'm stuck here, I've found several ways to spend my time semi-productively:
1. Institute. I have to laugh at this one- in my recent post I said that institute was something I would be doing if I were looking for a celestial mate instead of going on a mission. And then I promptly signed up for institute. I guess I'm just a walking contradiction huh? :) No, I signed up for institute for other reasons- namely so that I will stay on some kind of schedule. I have class M-Th at 10am at the Sandy Institute. It's been great so far! The spirit is strong, the people are interesting, and it get's me out of the house. Wonderful!
2. Piano. With so much time on my hands, I've taken to playing the piano for a couple hours each day. I don't think I'm pro by any means, but keeping the hymns fresh in my mind will make it easier to step up and play if necessary on my mission. It's been a nice way to fill my time! I love that I can sit and play my days away.
3. Temple Trips. I haven't been going every day, but planning in a session every week will definitely help me kill time and get ready to go. I looked up all the temples in Utah that allow you to rent clothing (I don't have any of my own yet), and I think I'm going to try and attend sessions at each of them before I leave. The ones in the Salt Lake Valley won't be too hard, but I'm going to have to make some special trips to attend Logan, St. George, and Vernal (two of which have already been planned). So that's fun.
4. Friend Adventures. Going to Cedar, walking around Temple Square, and eating delicious Café Rio burritos have helped me fill my hours, but most of my friends are busy with school and work and real life, so I'm just chillin' by myself most days. Can you believe I used to sleep and chill out for FUN when I was a child? Sheesh. I need to be accomplishing more!
There's still a chance that I will miraculously get a job for the Halloween season or the election season, but as more time goes on I seriously doubt it. Each day that I don't have a job means there's less chance of me getting one. Maybe I need to start volunteering somewhere... anything to make the hours fly by instead of drag on.
If you have any ideas, I'm all ears.